bottles
he breathes in and out through my lungs
toying with a deck of cards
thoughts of sentiment and worry
create noise inside
as he sits at a round table
shaking his head in dismay
the queen of hearts is missing from his deck
he sighs and shuffles the deck anyway, knowing he cant do much
but breathe in and out through my lungs
he knows that I hid…
that I hid the queen of hearts from him
panic stricken of my belonging
belonging to something a bit more complex
than pain
or just another silly game
if I hide my heart then you cant love me
and if you cant love me
i cant get…
hurt
again
my brother is my best friend
hes everything i need.
why would i subject him to
pain and greed
blood that pours out of veins that are used to the abuse
of relationships based in lies and pain
the kind of pain you never knew you had in you
razors drip red at the seams
cutting myself for cheap thrills
a moment of clarity brought by the blade
brought by blood…
and blood is the best sacrifice
blood is the best sacrifice when it comes to love
isnt it?
bleeding for my beloved, oh how romantic, how toxic of you
to pursue romance as a game
love as a futile thing, a joke
a reign of terror
to see the suffering of your fellow man
and continue down the path of madness
like a monster in a movie, a villain you hate
an angel attached to a devil
a devil who hides her heart from an angel
breathing in and out through my lungs







